EDIBLE PENCILS

had a fever last night and this morning, wasn't exactly the greatest feeling ever. splitting headache now mentally, emotionally, physically. i'm not the best person for dilemas, really.


don' know how many times must nature repeat it's course over and over again.
each time it happens, it doesn't bring about a happy feeling.
the otherwise instead.
can we please stop this?
i'm can go on no more like this everytime this happens.
just confused.
what am i supposed to do
will someone tell me?

heard about uncle larry's passing on today. very saddening indeed. life's that short uh. make full use of it i guess, live it with joy and gladness that He gives each day.

"For I know the plans i have for you" declares the Lord, " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

 okayokay, i'm posting as i promised if not somebody will go crankyyyy. hahaha.

tomorrow's lessons are gonna suck big time seriously, real big time. triple sciences with english. how cool is that. have to meet LFF after that LYM there after. then when i go home, gotta waste my life for a frigging 2 hours of chinese tuition. 

urghh, hate life as a student in singapore. sucks big time. 

anyway, i thank God for friction if not i would have fallen into a drain twice today. :D converse shoes still got hope bah. hahaha.


OHOHOH!  i found my anklet! :D super happy :D hahah! guess what i bought 2 packets of warheads today, hopefully they'll last me for tomorrow's lessons :/




p.s all the best for your job interview tomorrow okay! (:

 camp's over.

well done 27th(:

we did our best, we did all we could but we achieved what we wanted didn't we? the feeling of satisfaction was definitely pleasing wasn't it :d

hey 27th, i love everyone of you (:

 it was birthday on saturdayyy :D

we met at 10am then we bused on 143 to go to vivoo. LONGLONG RIDE. received my presentttt :DD loved it okayyyyy, realllyyy(:
hmmm, CARL'S JUNIOR! OMGG SUPER FULL! thenthenthen watched my sister's keeperrr, hmmm kinda okay lo. someone begs to differ thoughhh.

thenthenthen ate b and j. choco mac againnn! :D thenthen we bused to buona vista for crabbyyyy. met uncle yon and jess(: she's prettyyy hahah. ate a lot alot, thereafter we went to hagaan daaz for fondue choc and ice cream cake :D thanks uncle yong and D :D


on sunday, churched. went o eat lunch then went to joanne's house for table tennis. that was when everything happened i guess. 

monday, went to RP for the last day. YES! but unfortunately the start of some stuff. bad stuff.

today, bad. just bad. don't mention about it. really bad. 

 UPDATING BECAUSE SOMEONE IS BUGGING ME TO DO SO. 

results sucked a hell lot. much worse than before the republic thing is making me go crazy really. it's so far yet not of my interest. having a fever now actually may not make it tmr.

i really can't wait luh. i really wanna see what you did okayyyy i want to seeeeee!!!

 i've learnt so many things about myself these past days.

first, i grow cranky at boring places
i go crazy at boring places
i jump alot at cold places

really pissed at her, really. it's not only happening to me. how can you be so insenstive really. the world doesn't revolve around you and you only. i bet you don't even feel bad about what you've done don't you. oh wait you don't even know this is for you. think you've seen the world? think again.

you're just plain selfish

 EXAMS ARE OVER.

like whoohoo!~ x10000000000000000000000000000000000000000

went shopping after exams. first part really sucked a hell lot cos of some reasons. then it got better i guess(: met uncle yong for really nice and expensive dessertttt! haha. 

took a reallyreallyreally long ride home.

D made me waste 20 EMPTY taxis that i could have taken to vivo in stead of waiting for the damn 66 bus from bb.  TSK.

whoohoo!~ going shopping tmr at townnn! :d MONEYMONEYMONEYY I NEED MONEY!~

pffffftttt.  make it go away.

i feel like crap. jhsfdlkjawelrkuhsg.


never understood.

i've been spotting chaps from each subject lately like what gavin said. hopefully it does work. 

i'm going crazy.
i'm sick.
i'm stressing out
i'm not doing well in the exams
i'm trying to stuff a tissue up my nose now.
i'm trying to grace a bruised knee i got from falling in my own house-.-
i'm trying hard to breathe.
i'm trying to break through the darn nasal voice.
i'm tired of school
i'm sick of exams

damn you bigbigbigbigbig time. seriouslyy.

only You stand strong beside me. you too.

 something's wrong!! my eyes are itching everywhere i gooo. i'm sneezing very oftennn. i think it's the hazeee. oh darnn. i've bought the eyedrops.


must study. someone, motivate me.

maybe he's right, i'm one of those that act my way through, barge my thoughts through for the sake of doing so. pretty in front of teachers, sour behind the curtains. cos what has all these efforts landed me with anyway? nothing. 

resignation perhaps? nahs, too much drama. trying to solve the issue? nahs, if it did work, it would have long time ago. don't give a damn? works fine for me, works fine for everybody. and everybody continues to sleep in self denial, immaturity. what ever happen to realization? it died.

-a group of people that work their asses off, that end up with instant gratification. and mostly, resulting in: nothing. how lucky. 

maybe we're just not fit to meet up to all those expectations. or we choose not to. either one, it's not working. 


EOY's coming, maybe i should get the mind working rather than polluting it with this.. oh wait, i'll flunk it anyway. what ever happened to hope? it died too. ends well, all's well for everybody else anyway.

 oh boyyyy. hectic these few days uhhh. but basically, past two days have been lovely :) 

friday was :) hahaha. everything was cool.....except the darn ushering thing that just made me look like a joke hahaha. going up and down the stage ushering people up and down the stage as if thy've got no idea where the huge stageee. lameee. hahah. but it was super funny luh, while waiting for the speeches to be done, i was like standing like a goooooon at the bottom of the stage then D, zul and aziz, jiahui and adam were like trying to make me laugh lorrr. hahahah. so darn funny. after everything went town to eat 'popeyes' but failed. hahahha. walked from raffles place all the way to cityhall. it was ohmygawsh longggg. hahaha but i survived luhh :D hahahaha. in the end we ate pizza hut at marina square. wanted to eat at yuki yaki at first hahah buttttt, financially lacking. hahahahah. danggg.


today went to school in the morning for lessons for like frigging 3 hours. the after that i rushed for worship praccc. welll, it wasn't all that great hahhaha only some know whyyy. then resonateee. 18 of us cramped into that small creche. it was darn nostalgic luhh. hahahah. of the ESCC days. sighhhh~ hahahaha, then played captain's ball~ went for dinnerrrr. met -ahem ahemm- hahahah. damn scarryy luhhh. LOL. 
homed there after luhh. 

 the days are backkk.

 deborah, how stupid and imbecile can you get. really disppointed in you, really. maybe he was right all along. 

each time i see that post i slap myself. how stupid could i have been. really.

 thought it would have been the reverse. 
don't you ever think it's easy for me cos it's not.
it just isn't

for eternity, 
all my heart will sing
all the glory, to His name.



school's been _____.life's been ______. but i guess it's all been made up to (: with you (: